Wednesday 23 October 2013

On the subway today... girl near me was giggling every two sentences.

I miss being carefree.

Monday 14 October 2013

Eason 陳奕迅 於心有愧 MV



剛剛找翻出來這首歌.... 感覺很特別。

我這一生有傷過,也有受傷過。

對我傷過的人:  謝謝妳給我學習的機會...對不起。

對傷過我的人:  請恕我小氣... 到了現在我還未能原諒你。

and... I'm back.

Ahaha what a dusty old thing this is. *blows*

Recently I've pondered what happiness is. Everyone seems to have similar thoughts about it: delayed gratification, using happiness as a driving force behind our life's work (everyone's heard the "whatever makes you happy..."), etc. But should we be so quick as to deem happiness as our life's motivator? Why does happiness exist in the first place?

David Buss, in his paper The evolution of happiness brings up many evolutionary theories on distress, and how evolutionarily adaptive they were. He brings up the huge gap between modern and ancestral conditions, and how it affects different emotions such as jealousy (as well as how these emotions affect the new surroundings). well then can happiness be included within that group? is happiness fit to survive in our new environment? what /is/ happiness, anyway: a single emotion or a combination of them?

One learns in an introductory psychology class of "delayed gratification," the concept that if a child is able to resist temptation, then they will be more successful later in life. but why resist? one of the many things that I've been told as a child is that "everything you consume is limited. eat a lot now, and you won't be able to eat later." why? I don't believe that happiness should exist on either a short term or a long term basis. it should be able to do both! 

where do they get this from anyway? "work hard now, and you'll be much happier later." I haven't seen many occurrences of that... all I see are people complaining about their jobs, groaning about how they have to go to work/study. The elders I know, they aren't necessarily happy; the best I've seen is content (think of happiness as that first mouthful of ice cream). perhaps there was an overemphasis in stability in the last generation...?

the reason I believe for happiness not  existing on a long term scale is because of the needs of society cannot coexist with happiness. happiness is structured towards personal gain, like the caloric content in a tasty mouthful of ice cream. altruism, and working for a cause (etc)... I'll be again conjecturing here, but is it happiness through empathizing with the person you're helping? again, it's hard to know without actually knowing what happiness is. but I argue that happiness has no place in the construct we call society. there exists a disconnect between what we work for, and what we want to work for. 

so happiness, using delayed gratification is delayed into oblivion? if it's true... that's a hard pill to swallow. 

Wednesday 9 November 2011

i need a break. a break from life. christmas, you can't come soon enough.

Saturday 29 October 2011

sophistication, emotionless... same thing? so confused.

the thing im gonna miss most in uni is probably the piano... though i dont play it often.

Thursday 27 October 2011

today i realized that a lot of toronto kids are not proficient in internet lingo.

Wednesday 26 October 2011

fail blogger is fail. won't let me post on this thing ><"

Sunday 2 January 2011

er.... i dont think ive given such a fail present before... >.<

I'm reduced to giving sheet music. LOL. The Story of Us - Taylor Swift

jenn, feel better. =/


edits:

piano accompaniment will come soon

^that's for trumpet.